Sense of Betrayal Every day i woke up, I feel that something try

Sense of Betrayal

Every day i woke up,
I feel that something try to rip my mind,
I feel, that i'm pantomime,
So stupid doll, without self control.

Feel used, feel useless, feel forsaken,
While non existing handrail try to take,
I feel the spear, that called "lies",
Or even slice,is sticking
Out of my back, it's bleeding.

It's stupid sense,
When nothing i can feel,
It's stupid sense,
When your lies can not kill,
It's stupid sense
When i thought you need me,
It's stupid sense,
When i lost the ability to see,
It's stupid sense,
When my heart became black,
It's stupid sense,
When instead blood now only slag,

It is a stupid sense, when i feel myself betrayed, standing behind you.

NO!!!!!

The rage is controlling my mind,
And my heart stops to be so kind,
The anger flowing through my veins,
I won't be rescued by the saints.

I gave everything you want!
But in your silence i feel taunt,
Why do you cutting off my head,
What will you put on this place instead?

You bury me, but i'm alive,
You realise i can't survive,
You kicked me to the world of fake,
Above my head my dreams try break.

STOP!!!!!

Just look me in the eyes!
You switched doomsday device!
Why don't you even told me?
I DON'T NEED YOU!!!!!

I know nothing!
You told nothing!
You kept quiet!

You never told me EVERYTHING!
You never told me SOMETHING!
And all i know is NOTHING!
I want to be BLIND!
'Cause nothing i can't FIND!
I want to become DEAF!
'Cause nothing i can't HAVE!
And i will not hear LIES!
In your beautifull EYES!
Apocalypse device...

Why, why can't you tell me truth... It will be only time...